I went to Zesto. It was great hanging out with the guys from Trinity Baptist Church. I don’t mind spending time with older guys as they share stories and we joke around. I really need to find work. I am going to go to some sites and look after I finish writing this. I think I need a break from Green Hill Baptist Church, just to be able to go out to different churches and meet different people. I do not want to become religious. I mean I don’t want it go from being about a relationship to being about a scheduled activity. My goal is not to worship so that others think I am something but to have a walk with the Lord so that it’s not about what others think. If I say something and you don’t like it I am not really sure what to think about that because I am just writing what I feel lead to write. I know what those that scribed the New Testament came across people who did not agree with what they wrote. The authors of the new testament were no better than anyone today. I mean they messed up, but at least they finally saw the truth. Anyway, they had people who wanted to kill them throughout their ministry. Are we faithful enough to stand up against those that obey the ruler of this world? Am I brave enough to stand up against false teachers? Can we get back to the Word of God? Traditions are not bad in themselves as long as they do not take the place of scripture. I might return to Green Hill Baptist Church. I think I will wait to see if anyone really misses me. I mean will anyone try to invite me back? It’s not like anyone there really knows me. I don’t really think people there like me, but am I to be concerned with people liking me? I don’t think that’s in the Bible. I don’t want people to hate me but I cannot lie.
I bought a pair of ten pound weights. This will be great for when I work out. I really need to get in shape. I need to begin taking vitamins again. I do not know what I will do this evening. I am copying a CD I bought onto my computer. I love music. The CD:”The Best Worship Songs… Ever!” I suppose that right now I am in transition and that I just need to believe that God is in control and I need to trust in God alone. What I write here are my thoughts and are not about specific people. I try to leave out names because I do not have permission to use their names. I do write about what is on my heart. It is amazing how people think they know what you are talking about and they think they know all about something even if they don’t My life does not revolve around one building or one set of people. My hope is that my life will change to where my life revolves around God and doing His will in my life. Free Bible Software: http://www.bible-explorer.com/ I pray that God will turn us from the traditions on man. I pray for redemption for this country. I pray for growth in the church. I am not talking about having more people in the pews, though that is where it begins. I am praying for real growth that involves the heart. I do know this: that to follow after Christ will not be easy and that there will be persecution.
I have applied to several jobs, but all are out of state. One is a church in California. I have applied to mostly churches, but I am open to any video production, writing, photography, acting, filmmaking, and related jobs. I don’t know where I will go tonight. I might go to Zesto to meet up with the people from Trinity Baptist Church. I have no desire to have a rigid schedule tonight. What is church? Church is the body of believers. Where is church? Wherever the body gathers to worship. I see no need to call it anything but a house church when people meet in a relaxed setting to worship God. It can be anywhere, and does not have to be a fancy building. It can be a cigar shop as I know of one cigar shop church. Some call house church small groups. They are small in number I guess, but why does church have to be some rigid, formal, event. Church is the body. The building is great,but if our focus is the building then our focus is not God. I am going to get ready so that I can go to Wal Mart with my mom. I may not always agree with you, whoever you is, but I love you. Love is without condition. I pray that we can grow from our differences and that our main focus is our relationship with God. I give God the credit for anything good that comes from me and I accept the blame for anything bad that comes from me. How happy is the man who does not follow the advice of the wicked or take the path of sinners or join a group of mockers! 2 Instead, his delight is in the Lord’s instruction, and he meditates on it day and night. 3 He is like a tree planted beside streams of water that bears its fruit in season and whose leaf does not wither. Whatever he does prospers. Psalms 1:1-3 (HCSB)
Last night was good. It was a small crowd at Meto (First Baptist Church – Columbia). It was great meeting new people. I am looking forward to going next month. Today I am not sure what I will do besides go to Wal-Mart. I was going to work on some writing and maybe I will still do that sometime today. I suppose some clarity is needed for one of my blogs. When I wrote of the preaching of hate at Green Hill Baptist Church I was not thinking of Alan Adams, but I was thinking of others. It seems that for someone to write me such a long message that there must be some conviction there. I know that when I am convicted about something that it is not always easy. You do not have to go to a school to be a preacher, all you need to do is preach. It is best if you preach the Gospel and not hate. The body is not perfect but to sit aside and not attempt to change is not the way to go. When you are sick don’t you do something about it? The only problem is that I am not the one that can do anything about the many issues at Green Hill Baptist Church. No one would listen to me, I mean unless I write it on here, and no one would care what I have to say. Try not attacking me and try doing something to make a difference. The church as a whole, worldwide, needs so much prayer. Prayer that we do not get consumed by greed. Do not just sit there when someone preaches hate, especially if it is in a public place like a church. Do not stand up for those that preach hate. They are filled with all unrighteousness, evil, greed, and wickedness. They are full of envy, murder, quarrels, deceit, and malice. They are gossips, 30 slanderers, God-haters, arrogant, proud, boastful, inventors of evil, disobedient to parents, 31 undiscerning, untrustworthy, unloving, and unmerciful. 32 Although they know full well God’s just sentence—that those who practice such things deserve to die —they not only do them, but even applaud others who practice them. Romans 1:29-32 (HCSB) But now I am writing you not to associate with anyone who claims to be a believer who is sexually immoral or greedy, an idolater or verbally abusive, a drunkard or a swindler. Do not even eat with such a person. 12 For what ⌊business⌋ is it of mine to judge outsiders? Don’t you judge those who are inside? 13 But God judges outsiders. Put away the evil person from among yourselves. 1 Cor 5:11-13 (HCSB) “You have heard that it was said, Love your neighbor and hate your enemy. 44 But I tell you, love your enemies and pray for those who persecute you, 45 so that you may be sons of your Father in heaven. For He causes His sun to rise on the evil and the good, and sends rain on the righteous and the unrighteous. 46 For if you love those who love you, what reward will you have? Don’t even the tax collectors do the same? 47 And if you greet only your brothers, what are you doing out of the ordinary? Don’t even the Gentiles do the same? 48 Be perfect, therefore, as your heavenly Father is perfect. Matt 5:43-48 (HCSB) If we, Christians could just remember that we are no better than anyone else and that Christ came and died then maybe we could impact lives. If we set an example for those without by how we live our lives and not by us trying to tell them how to live their lives. Shall we continue to practice sin? Shall we preach that God hates people? God hates sin, but who has not sinned? And who is free of sin? If we say that we are without sin then we are liars. The church as a whole needs change and maybe it will happen but not if we do not allow God to use us to make these changes. I so pray that you will believe what I believe but I do not believe forcing anyone to believe what I believe is the right approach. I am speaking in general terms and I am convicted that if I do not live my life according to the Word of God how can I expect any better from anyone else. I do not want to limit my observations to one building. When I mention preaching hate I am also reminded of the wider picture. The preaching of hate is all over the place, but I had to use the example that made me write it. It was a week ago tonight that I find myself reminding someone that God loved the world so much that He sent Christ to die for the world. Therefore, just as sin entered the world through one man, and death through sin, in this way death spread to all men, because all sinned. 13 In fact, sin was in the world before the law, but sin is not charged to a person’s account when there is no law. 14 Nevertheless, death reigned from Adam to Moses, even over those who did not sin in the likeness of Adam’s transgression. He is a prototype of the Coming One. 15 But the gift is not like the trespass. For if by the one man’s trespass the many died, how much more have the grace of God and the gift overflowed to the many by the grace of the one man, Jesus Christ. 16 And the gift is not like the one man’s sin, because from one sin came the judgment, resulting in condemnation, but from many trespasses came the gift, resulting in justification. 17 Since by the one man’s trespass, death reigned through that one man, how much more will those who receive the overflow of grace and the gift of righteousness reign in life through the one man, Jesus Christ. 18 So then, as through one trespass there is condemnation for everyone, so also through one righteous act there is life-giving justification for everyone. 19 For just as through one man’s disobedience the many were made sinners, so also through the one man’s obedience the many will be made righteous. 20 The law came along to multiply the trespass. But where sin multiplied, grace multiplied even more 21 so that, just as sin reigned in death, so also grace will reign through righteousness, resulting in eternal life through Jesus Christ our Lord. Romans 5:12-21 (HCSB)
I am more awake now. I think I will leave here soon and head towards FBC Columbia. I do not know how soon is soon since I have no specific plans for the day until 7 PM. I will go by the Post Office. I might eat at Wendy’s. I might stop by Krispy Kreme. I think I will go to the State Museum and use one of the passes I have. After that I do not know since I do not know how long it will take me to do whatever else I end up doing and I do not know what time the museum closes. This will all be a let’s see what happens kind of day. Those can be some of the best days to have since when good things do happen on those days they are pleasant surprises. Tomorrow I plan on going to the library to work on my script and stuff. I do not know about tomorrow evening yet. I have been invited to Zesto by people from Trinity Baptist Church. I think I will eat before I go there, if I go there, and I might stop by Green Hill Baptist Church to say hi to people but it will be another see what happens and see how I feel kind of thing. Thursday night is Ignite. Friday is House Church. Saturday is the dance with Columbia After Dark. Sunday I will go to Trinity Baptist Church in the morning and maybe Green Hill Baptist Church in the evening. I know that there are people that would take it personally by me saying that I need to get away from Green Hill Baptist Church. Green Hill Baptist Church needs so much change and I do not believe that I am the one that can make this change happen. I don’t think some people there are open to living according to the Word and not tradition. I just do not believe that there is love and compassion there, at least not much of it. I cannot be a part of a church where hate is preached and salvation is reserved to a select group of people. Where redemption is not practiced. Without love there is nothing. Without love there is no hope. God is love and Christ did not come to condemn the world but to save it. Save your hate for another date, your fate sealed by your words. Suppose we could live according to the Word of God? Suppose we can live without greed? Suppose we can live as ONE body? Now all the believers were together and held all things in common. 45 They sold their possessions and property and distributed the proceeds to all, as anyone had a need. 46 Every day they devoted themselves ⌊to meeting⌋ together in the temple complex, and broke bread from house to house. They ate their food with a joyful and humble attitude, 47 praising God and having favor with all the people. And every day the Lord added to them those who were being saved. Acts 2:44-47 (HCSB) Let brotherly love continue. 2 Don’t neglect to show hospitality, for by doing this some have welcomed angels as guests without knowing it. 3 Remember the prisoners, as though you were in prison with them, and the mistreated, as though you yourselves were suffering bodily. 4 Marriage must be respected by all, and the marriage bed kept undefiled, because God will judge immoral people and adulterers. 5 Your life should be free from the love of money. Be satisfied with what you have, for He Himself has said, I will never leave you or forsake you. 6 Therefore, we may boldly say: The Lord is my helper; I will not be afraid. What can man do to me? Heb 13:1-6 (HCSB) Difficult times will come in the last days. 2 For people will be lovers of self, lovers of money, boastful, proud, blasphemers, disobedient to parents, ungrateful, unholy, 3 unloving, irreconcilable, slanderers, without self-control, brutal, without love for what is good, 4 traitors, reckless, conceited, lovers of pleasure rather than lovers of God, 5 holding to the form of godliness but denying its power. Avoid these people! 2 Tim 3:1-5 (HCSB) If then there is any encouragement in Christ, if any consolation of love, if any fellowship with the Spirit, if any affection and mercy, 2 fulfill my joy by thinking the same way, having the same love, sharing the same feelings, focusing on one goal. 3 Do nothing out of rivalry or conceit, but in humility consider others as more important than yourselves. 4 Everyone should look out not ⌊only⌋ for his own interests, but also for the interests of others. Christ’s Humility and Exaltation 5 Make your own attitude that of Christ Jesus, 6 who, existing in the form of God, did not consider equality with God as something to be used for His own advantage. 7 Instead He emptied Himself by assuming the form of a slave, taking on the likeness of men. And when He had come as a man in His external form, 8 He humbled Himself by becoming obedient to the point of death— even to death on a cross. 9 For this reason God highly exalted Him and gave Him the name that is above every name, 10 so that at the name of Jesus every knee will bow — of those who are in heaven and on earth and under the earth — 11 and every tongue should confess that Jesus Christ is Lord, to the glory of God the Father. Phil 2:1-11 (HCSB)
I am sort of awake. I’ve been having these short, weird, dreams this morning. I am trying to decide what to do today. How to spend my time. My goal is to me more productive. Metro at First Baptist Columbia is tonight. I am looking forward to it, but if it is like the “singles groups that I have been to lately then I will be disappointed. I was very hopeful about Trinity Baptist Church having people my age in the singles area, but that is not the case. Columbia After Dark is great to go to but there’s no one close to my age that comes there. Green Hill Baptist has no one close to my age, not even close to my age. It has been said that it is what you make of it, but you cannot make someone be near your age. I like going to these different groups to hang out, but I want to be around more people near my age. I do not have anyone in my life at the moment that is close to my age. I am tired of being single and I am interested in finding someone, but I am not desperate. I am going to focus on getting a career started. If I do meet someone I will be very happy about it but that is not something I am going to spend hours of the day thinking about. I have applied to a church in California (Ventura Missionary Church) and I have received a message saying that they have received my application. I don’t know if I really want to get this or not. I hate moving but I need to find work. I am going to get ready and think about what I need to do today and try to figure out my schedule….
Columbia After Dark was good. I went to Starbucks afterwards and we stayed there until 11PM. I am going to go to bed soon. My plans for tomorrow are not set as of yet, and I think I will just take it as it happens. I want to go to Metro at First Baptist Columbia at 7PM. Before that I am not certain what I want to do. I might eat somewhere and go to the State Museum before going to Metro. Wednesday I think I will go to the library to work on my script and other things like redoing my web sites so that they are better. I need to think about some scripts that I can shoot here and ways to raise the money. I now have at least 2 web sites to help find backers. I am a filmmaker, Writer, Actor and photographer. I may not be working right now but I am still these things. I cannot see myself doing anything else. Being a Christian is not being superior to everyone else, it’s not about going to a building once or twice a week, it’s not about reading “Christian” books, listening to “Christian” music, it’s not about quoting or reading the Bible and not putting to practice what you read or quote, it’s not about something we do or say, it’s not about the cross or Calvary, it’s not about any of this. Being a Christian is a relationship, like that of the disciples. It is a relationship where you follow after Christ. It’s not about What would Jesus do, but what would Christ have you do? We are all unique for a reason. God could have made clones and God could have made us obey with the lack of free will. Being a Christian should not be something you have to do. God does not need us to make His will complete. He wants and desires us to come to Him but He is in control no matter what. No person made Jesus go to the cross, so don’t say that we placed Him on the cross. He died on the cross because He loves us to that degree, that He gave His life as payment for our debt (Sin). Being a Christian is not forcing people to come to Christ. We should live as examples of how to live instead of telling others how to live and not living according to God’s Word ourselves. I am speaking to myself at the same time concerning all of this. I mean my desire is to live out what I believe. I have faith that good works shall follow, but I shall not force “good works” hoping that faith will come. Let us be bold in our walk, constant in prayer, constant in the Word, examples of those walking in the Light, and not be proud or boastful so that no one can claim that we are anything but humble servants of our God.