I am tired and a little stressed. I have found out that I will be taken to court over the massive student loan debt that I have acquired. I have been looking for work for over a year now and I still have not found anything. I know that I need a great paying job to be able to take care of this debt. I have no idea what to do. I went to school in the hope of improving myself. I thought I would be able to get an entry level job in the television or film industry. I can’t even get a job at a small. local, television station. I have applied to so many different jobs including some at churches. I am going to keep looking for work. I the idea of going to school for six years just to look for work that you can get without going to school crazy. I think spending all that time studying for a specific field and then to have to look for work in areas that you have no interest in or qualifications for a waste of time. Why do people get degrees not related to film or video production go into those industries? All that I can think about is the fact that I owe close to or more than, not really sure at this point, a quarter of a MILLION dollars. I would have to win a very big lottery to pay off my debt. I wonder if that is the goal of higher education in this country. If only I were good at sports.
Web Sites: (Some are my web sites, others are sites my profile page on sites that relate to my acting)
It is foolish to think “If God wants to make it happen He will”. I am not saying that God cannot make anything happen if He wills it to be. I just desire to listen when He tells me what to do. God wants to have us be a part of His will. Christ said to follow after Him. It’s not about just sitting and praying and expecting things to happen. I mean it’s great to take time and pray and wait. But when God tells you to do something, then you should do it. Think of Jonah. Being a Christian is not about being perfect. It’s about reaching towards Perfection, Christ Jesus, and seeking after Perfection. It’s not about you or me. It is not anything that we have done. Shall we boast in our ignorance? My confidence is not in Man, but the creator. If you look at the world and nature you can see how things point towards God. How can all of this be from a random event? Pay careful attention, then, to how you walk—not as unwise people but as wise— 16 making the most of the time, because the days are evil. 17 So don’t be foolish, but understand what the Lord’s will is. 18 And don’t get drunk with wine, which ⌊leads to⌋ reckless actions, but be filled by the Spirit: 19 speaking to one another in psalms, hymns, and spiritual songs, singing and making music from your heart to the Lord, 20 giving thanks always for everything to God the Father in the name of our Lord Jesus Christ, 21 submitting to one another in the fear of Christ. Eph 5:15-21 (HCSB)
I plan on working out shortly, but at the moment I am still not really awake. This makes it difficult to type this. I hate it when I sleep and I wake up tired. Maybe I just need to get started and I will become awake and energized by the work out. It is not easy to consider direction in life. I mean there are so many choices that have to be made and you cannot just sit around and wait. I mean you can wait some but sooner or later you are going to have to actually do something. I know what I want to do as a career, at least a general idea, but I have no clue as to how I will get there. I pray for clarity and direction with my career. I should be going to Columbia After Dark tonight. There will be a band there. I hope that they won’t be too loud. It would be great if Columbia After Dark could get some professional bands like Everyday Sunday or The David Crowder Band. I guess the bands they get are the only ones that they can get. Maybe it could be less a concert and more of a time of worship? My hope is that Trinity Baptist Church is where God would have me worship, but if it’s not I pray that God will direct me to that place. I am warming up to Trinity Baptist Church. I just want a place to worship where I feel like part of a big family instead of a spectator in the bleachers. Get up, sleeper, and rise up from the dead, and the Messiah will shine on you. Eph 5:14 (HCSB) Besides this, knowing the time, it is already the hour for you to wake up from sleep, for now our salvation is nearer than when we first believed. 12 The night is nearly over, and the daylight is near, so let us discard the deeds of darkness and put on the armor of light. 13 Let us walk with decency, as in the daylight: not in carousing and drunkenness; not in sexual impurity and promiscuity; not in quarreling and jealousy. 14 But put on the Lord Jesus Christ, and make no plans to satisfy the fleshly desires. Romans 13:11-14 (HCSB)