June 1st, 1012 # 2

I am about to launch a campaign on indiegogo.com in an attempt to raise the funds needed to replace some of the video and photography gear that was stolen from me.

I am certain that this will reveal the people that truly support me. I will know who my friends are with this campaign.

If it does well then I know I have support and if certain people help make this successful I will know they are my friends.

June 1st, 2012 # 1

My mom’s surgery went well. Hopefully all of the tumor was removed. We will find out soon whether or not this is the case.

These years since coming back to South Carolina have been years of spiritual growth, but also constant reminders of loss.

I have moved away from denominational religion and towards a relationship with my God. I do admit that I have so far to go on this journey.

When looking back it is not easy to remember the loss I have suffered, nor is it easy to forget. I had everything stolen from me. Most of the items are what could be considered replaceable but I am not able to replace anything. There are also items that meant a great deal to me and are not replaceable.

I once had professional photography equipment, 2 Mac Computers (with Creative Suite, Final Cut Studio, and Pro Tools). I had a large collection of DVDs and books. Everything I had was stolen.

It’s would be easy for some to think of these things as replaceable but I have no means to replace anything that was stolen.

Gone are the many photographs I took and the photographs from my childhood.

I want to move past the loss, but it is not so easy. I have no job. I have no car. I have no place of my own. It would be easy for someone that has a job and a car and house to say a bunch of sayings or other worthless things.

I have so much debt from film school. Debt that I am certain is growing everyday. In this country trying to improve yourself is rewarded with debt.

I would prefer the slate to be wiped clean. I would owe nothing.

Maybe if my things had not been stolen things would have been different. Shortly after my camera was stolen I began receiving offers for paid photography work.

I cannot use my skills to find work because I do not have the tools needed. I have skills. I know that some do not think highly of these skills but I know that anyone that thinks so, is merely jealous that they have no skills of worth.

I am single and I would like to change that, but I will not date or eventually marry someone other than the person right for me. I have been using POF, but it’s worthless. There are too many woman on there that lie about their age.

I have lost respect for certain people and this respect is gone. I forgive them of their ignorance, but the respect I had shall never be again as it was.

I have foolishly based decisions in my life based upon promises of other people and or other people’s guidance but i have found that doing so I have made the wrong decisions.

I do not know what to do now. I have been applying to so many different jobs. It does not seem as though anyone will ever hire me. I know that I need the job that is best for me, but I have been submitting to anything and everything I come across.

May 27th, 2012

I have been blessed. God has blessed me.

I have been blessed in many ways.

I won a 25$ Gift Card this week from an Instant Win.

I have received several coupons from Nestle Coffee Mate for free coffee creamer.

My last blog I mentioned the stuff I received from Silk. I believe I mistakenly attributed them to BzzAgent but they were sent from a program through Coffee Mate.

I have received a free bottle of SoBe with Coconut Water and a coupon for a free SoBe beverage. This was through BzzAgent.

I enter sweepstakes and Instant Wins all of the time. I also sign up for samples and freebies all of the time.

I have been entering to win a house through HG Channel.

I am thankful for all that I have. I know that, despite what I have gone through, that I do have hope which is only found in Christ.

I have been using the site POF (Plenty of Fish). I am single but i would like to change that, but only if I meet the right woman.

My Mom’s surgery for breast cancer is this week. I pray that all goes well with this.

 The World is changing, God remains the same. Difficult times are ahead, but why fear when God is in control.

Do we prepare for the unknown? Is God our Maser?

Questions and more questions that each of us need to ask ourselves.

Marriage is a hot topic these days, but it seems to be a distraction from other issues that need to be addressed: the economy.

I hope to find work soon. The skills I have may not be “useful” to some people but they are my skills. It seems anyone that calls someone else’s skills as “useless” are merely jealous that they are not skilled themselves.

God Bless!

Career

I have been looking for the beginning of my career, a job opening that would allow me to begin my career.

I have applied to jobs to so many places over the past years.

I have applied to various openings with various organizations in various locations around the world.

I have applied to all kinds of positions.

I have only had a couple of interviews during this time.

People that think they know me don’t understand anything.

These people think they are smart and other things I find them to be anything but what they think they are…

May 25th

It’s amazing how time goes by so fast at times. I have not been posting one here as a I should.

I have been busy submitting to job openings. I still have not found a job in over 3 years of looking.

Over the past few months I have received some great freebies I want to share with you.

I received a free pillow through Smiley 360. It is a Sleep Number pillow valued at over one hundred dollars.

I received some free stuff from Silk through Bzzz Agent. The kit included: coupons for 4 free Silk products, 1$ coupons off the new Fruit and Protein which tastes great as do Silk Products in general, fancy straws, fridge magnets, and some other items. You might think I am saying nice things about Silk because they sent me stuff including a nice glass and a tumbler but I really love to drink Silk. My favorite is Silk Vanilla but I also enjoy Silk Chocolate. Silk soy is what I am referring to.

I received a selection of McCormick Grill Mates seasonings, rubs and marinades through CrowdTap.

I am fortunate enough to receive freebies through the mail on a regular basis.

I just received a tent Through NCP Online using points acquired with their at home scanner program.

I have a stack of books that I need to review, which is great but I am behind on this.

I am feeling very irritated with some people.That’s all I will write about that.

I hope to have a job soon. I don’t know much I will write about that here. I know that I will not share about what’s happening in my life with certain people that I know because I just found out they really don’t want to hear about what’s going on in my life. What if I said the same thing about tractors or hospitals or tire manufacturers? I don’t feel that way because I like to hear about their lives even if I cannot relate to everything they share.

I hope to begin sharing on here again, maybe daily.

Maybe.

I don’t know if anyone actually reads this.

May 19th

I have been looking for work for over 3 years. I have looked everywhere including the UK and Ireland.

I will have a phone interview this Tuesday concerning a job at a TV station in upstate South Carolina.
My concern when applying to any job is whether or not the salary will be enough to cover expenses.
I am also concerned about the location of the job and how this relates to available apartments or houses to rent in the area. As I do not have a car a place that has public transportation is helpful. It would be easy if it were located in a city, say London, but when applying for a rural job, say anywhere in South Carolina, public transportation is an issue.
I would also have to consider whether or not I can easily access a grocery store, and other places from the potential job.
I had one company in London ask me when I was planning on being there for an interview. It was a great job but I do not have a work visa so I did not get the job.
I had a driver’s license in California, but it expired some time ago and I do not have one now. I need to get one, but without a car it is impossible.
I have given up on producing the TV pilot “The Kelleys”. If the opportunity to produce it were to come along then things would be different.
I have a POF (Plenty of Fish) account and I have looked at various profiles but I do not think I will ever meet someone from using the site. I would like to meet a woman and eventually marry but I do not see that happening anytime soon.

I get down from time to time, depressed, but I guess everyone does from time to time.

My faith keeps me moving forward.